Christmas has passed, but around here, Spring is the most wonderful time of the year.
The picture above is from 2011 – right around the time my recovery began.
Princess Jasmine was the closest thing I had to a girlfriend (that’s slightly exaggerated but not by much lol).
For real though – p*rn messed up how I viewed myself and how I viewed women.
I wanted to be in a long-term committed relationship one day, but I struggled to feel worthy.
And I also wondered if getting into a relationship would just make things worse.
On the flip side…part of me thought that maybe getting married would fix my problems. Having s*x regularly would satisfy any of the desires I have for p*rn, right?
Wrong. Oh, so terribly wrong.
Thank God a mentor of mine corrected me on that one.
“Marriage is a magnifier. If it’s a problem now, it will be worse later.”
FEBRUARY 2012 – I prayed a BOLD prayer: “God, whoever my future wife is – keep her from me...
Sunday is the most popular day to watch p*rn (according to P*rnHub the last few years).
Seems strange, doesn’t it?
Sundays are days to worship God, spend time with your community, relax, kick your feet up, etc.
So why is it that arguably the least structured and most relaxed day of the week would be such a stumbling block for so many people?
When I was a kid, one time I had the task of moving some bricks from one end of the backyard to the other.
Brick by brick was not a big deal. But I hated the last brick in the pile, because I never knew what I was going to find underneath it.
Sure, there was always dirt and grime. But it was the bugs I hated. Slugs, worms, etc.
Interesting to think they were there all along, I just didn’t see them until I moved the brick.
A lot of guys that have come to me over the years have resorted to staying busy to avoid temptation. It’s the only way they know how to cope.
While I do believe we are not to have idle hands, I also believe a...
What does it feel like to be completely free of p*rn and masturbation for 7 years?
I think the picture above perfectly sums it up lol!
Hard to believe that at one point in my life I was a hopeless addict, waking up each day praying to God that I would somehow make it to the end without a relapse.
I still remember one particular day while I was studying at my university. It was a long day and I was getting excited to go home and watch p*rn.
This was the only way I knew how to cope.
On my way home I got a text from a friend - a few people were hanging out and they asked me if I wanted to stop by.
I decided to pop by for a bit and say hi. It was great hanging out with everyone, but all along, I couldn’t wait to get home so I could get my “reward” for the day.
It’s borderline miraculous how much has changed since then.
These days my reward after a hard day of work is spending time with my gorgeous wife, hanging out with friends who encourage and...
“Ask, and it will be given to you; seek, and you will find; knock, and it will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives, and he who seeks finds, and to him who knocks it will be opened.” – Matthew 7:7-8
Recently, a mentor of mine was explaining to me that if you were to look a bit more closely at the words used here - ask, seek, and knock - they are continuous.
It made me realize how many times in my life I have stopped short because I already asked a few times and nothing happened.
“Already tried that…didn’t work.”
“Maybe this sin of mine is just my thorn in the flesh”
“I’ve done a few recovery programs before, Sathiya… still struggling though.
Why knock again?”
Because he who KEEPS asking receives…
He who KEEPS seeking will find…
And to him who KEEPS knocking, the door will be opened…
Whether you’re just diving...
In August 2010, my Dad had invited a prophet to minister at our church.
It was the first time he had ever done anything like this before…the whole idea of God speaking present-moment was a huge stretch for our congregation.
But we wanted to see what the experience was like.
That night I received a word that absolutely changed my life. Among the many promises that were included in this prophetic word was a brief statement: “You will write books”.
I had always dreamt about being an author. The idea of having something to share that the world would want to read was invigorating.
“I’ll get around to it when I’m older.” I told myself.
But I had a realization in 2020.
I have been bad at basically everything the first time I tried. Whether it was sports, music, business, even academics where I have a natural gift.
I had to put the reps in to get better.
So if I know my first book will probably be mediocre compared to my 5th, why wait until...
If you had better hair, more muscles, a nicer car, a bigger house, more money, etc., THEN you would be happy.
THEN you would feel like a man.
THEN you would actually enjoy life.
I used to think this way too. And it wasn’t just the conditioning of mainstream media and marketing that caused it…
Recently a client confessed to us that he deals with major body shame because of pornography.
All of the men in porn are muscular, have little to no fat on their bodies, and are rather...um…endowed.
So he can’t help but feel like something is wrong with him. “My body should be better” he tells himself.
Whether you realize it or not, porn reprograms your brain to new standards that are totally unrealistic.
This is not just true in its depiction of sex, it’s also true in its depiction of what it means to be a man.
When I stopped watching porn back in February 2016, among the obvious changes to my spiritual, mental, and physical health, there was another...
Been thinking a lot about the whole idea of “waiting on God” thing lately…
I heard a friend recently say that about 78% of people report not being happy in their jobs.
There have been seasons where I would’ve put myself in that group. But these days, I am quite solidly in the 22%.
I am doing the things that I always imagined myself doing.
But you know what stopped me for the longest time?
Waiting on God.
I had SO many ideas and innovations. Ways that I could improve something or offer something new. But I thought I had to get a clear green light from God to take any steps forward.
But I’ve learned something recently … 2 Corinthians 1:20 says that all of God’s promises are yes and amen.
To me, that means the light is GREEN by default. Unless it turns red, proceed.
And that little shift in my thinking has launched me towards my destiny in ways that “waiting” never could.
A lot of the guys we work with tell us they wish they...
Every generation thinks they’re better than the last.
I am certainly guilty of thinking that my generation is superior to previous generations. Especially my parent’s gen.
And you could probably make an argument for that in some areas of life and society.
But most generations aren’t nearly as great as they think they are.
I realized this in my late 20s. And I more or less concluded that most generations are like every other generation.
They make some things better.
They make other things worse.
Most things stay the same.
And the next generation will do the exact same thing.
BUT in the last couple of years, I’ve realized that was wrong too.
The TRUTH is that every generation stands on the shoulders of previous generations. If we make anything better, it’s because previous generations put us in a position to do so.
And it’s our responsibility to do the same for the next gen.
The picture above was taken with a highly respected pastor in Northern...
Loneliness is plaguing men at unprecedented rates.
Somehow, we have become worse at making (and keeping) friends.
We opt for less social activities to kill time.
And even though we desperately want to connect…
We don’t know how.
THIS is why men are so addicted to their devices, social media, and porn (by the way if you want some help with that, click here).
And it’s why the research time and time again shows how powerful CONNECTION is in recovery.
These 2 gentlemen below are DeepClean graduates – both had radical transformations going through the program.
Sam, the gentleman on the right, said that he had done several recovery programs before but never experienced anything like DeepClean. He’s more confident, his career is progressing again, and he has hope for the future.
Dr. “Skip” Mondragon is on the left. He served as a military doctor for 25 years, has a TEDx talk with tens of thousands of views, and is a best-selling author. He was...
My wife and I often get asked “the question” by Christian couples that are dating
“How far is too far?”
You know what I’m talking about…
As Christians, we know that sex was designed for marriage... High level of intimacy in the context of high level commitment.
So dating and engagement can be challenging seasons. Hormones are in full throttle, yet somehow you have to keep it together until you tie the knot.
…If you’re asking “the question”, you’ve already lost.
It’s not about what you can get away with, or how close you can get to the line without crossing it.
The real question is, “What will serve our relationship the best in the long run?”
My wife and I dated for a year and were engaged for 18 months before getting married in September 2019.
We went through hell during our engagement – major illness, buried 5 relatives, tons of financial distress, and a whole bunch of...